Well Said.


“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”


-Neil Gaiman

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  1. Merry Ms. BerryJanuary 31, 2013 at 4:05 PM

    dammit girl! you are stronger than this. love is great. infatuation and misconception are the evils that surround love. im gonna pinch you. real love is not what you describe. you will find what you want. have faith.

    remember faith? we have to go through all the crap to find the diamonds. trust me. i used to carry a shovel.

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