Some Type of Way
I've been...unsettled. Just kind of bobbing below the surface of contentment, and I don't really know why. Life has been...fine. A little thin in the pockets, but...fine. Work has been great. Busy. Exhausting. Overwhelming. But yay new stuff and staying busy. Yay fat raise. I'm in a great place with the boss, firmly in "Right Hand" territory. The weight is coming off and Surgery Day is approaching. T-minus 3 weeks and change. Mentally I'm in a good place. Most days. But somedays... I'm realizing now that the reason I'm down a lot is that I have nobody to rely on. I've only ever had myself. When the chips are down, I only have me. When I have hard days, I only have myself to vent to. People hype things like this up and put you on this pedestal for being a bad ass who doesn't need anyone, and while I appreciate the compliment, it couldn't be less true. The ones who compliment my "strength" are always those that have never been w