::Let Me Clear My Throat::

I want to be torn up and tattered Shattered, Blindsided...Hard to find the outside, the inside... Script completely flipped. Lost.... Down the rabbit hole into a world unknown Mind..BLOWN. Wanna touch unknown places..faces.. Uncharted territory...a Utopian dream Love story. -Me, August 2012

What's the word I'm looking for...melancholy?  No, that's not it. Itchy and unsatisfied?  Eh, getting warmer. Oh wait, I got it! SOLD!   Ok, you're probably scratching your head wondering if I'm mixing my meds again today (I wish I was) with a big WTF dancing a jig over your head. Well this little light o' mine, I'm gonna let it shine, so sit back and take notes.   A year ago I thought had it all figured out.  I rose from the dirt, dusted my ass off, and hauled it into school, knowing I would walk out 9 months later with a well respected career.  It wasn't my first choice; hell, it wasn't even my third or fourth.  Truth be told, I wasn't really remotely interested in getting into healthcare at all-It just never twirled my beanie-yeah, people have to be healthy, but I was more interested in making them pretty. Unfortunately beauty school doesn't hand over many job guarantees, so I did the responsible thing. Three months in, and I feel...

One of the things I question the most in life is how a person can neglect their own children.  I personally can't fathom the idea of knowing my flesh and blood is running around the planet and having little or nothing to do with them. It makes no sense. This is especially agonizing when you have to witness this happening to your own child, and nothing you say or do changes the fact that the BabyDaddy is a self serving douchebag.   The worst thing in my world is seeing one of my kids unhappy and not being able to fix it for them.  That's a mom's job, to fix the broken things.  What do you do when the broken thing is the dad, and all you want to do is break him more because he's hurting your baby?  I've always been a Momma Grizzly, but this...this takes it to a whole new level. BabyDaddy, as I've told you, is soon to be divorced.  For the last 7 months, however, Mr. "I don't cheat" has been getting it on with an old friend of his...a very MARRIED  ...