::Let Me Clear My Throat::

I've never made secret the fact that I am a rubenesque woman. Tho I'm not exactly proud of all this extra phatness, I'm generally comfortable in my own skin, and seem to do okay with the opposite (and sometimes same) sex.  Or so I thought. You may remember, oh, about a dozen posts or so I talked about men and how they relate to me as a bigger woman.  I mentioned that men tend to think just because you're big, automatically that makes you desperate, and in turn, easy. Yes, some men need to be educated...and maybe hit with a blunt object, but that's niether here nor there.  Anyway, so I've noticed that I've run into a problem. I have no problems attracting men. They flock to me, in fact. The problem lies in the fact that I seem to be good enough to sleep with, but not good enough to actually date .  That, in itself, is kind of a mindfuck if you think about it-'Ok, so you find me attractive, you think I'm awesome as a person, you text me 100 times a d...

If you're a friend of mine of Facebook, or even in person, you probably hear alot about these guys.  For those of you that don't know (or think you do), here's the story: Ceasefire is an amazing up and coming band from California. They've toured extensively on the West coast, even opening up for bands like Daughtry.  They've released two amazing singles, and number three is on the way! They are shaping up to be huge, and now is your chance to be there with them from the beginning.  On a more personal note, the four guys that make up the band: Ray, Mark, Kamren and Anthony, as well as their manager Gabe, are the greatest bunch of guys to know.  The guys are crazy talented, but humble and down-to-Earth, and truly appreciate those who appreciate them!  I feel blessed to know them, and truly wish them all the success in the world, because if anyone deserves it, they do! Check out my boys Ceasefire on Soundcloud or on Facebook! Newest Single!     Hear...

  I will freely admit that I am the reigning Queen of fucked up relationships.  I mean, everyone has one or two by the time they hit my age, but mine have literally defined my whole life.  After that, emotional baggage just kinda comes with the territory, but in order to move on, it's mandatory to travel light.  This, of course, is just MY way of looking at things, and I can't speak for everyone else...but I CAN speculate and wonder how the fuck people think the way they do if their outlook differs. Case in point:   I was involved in a conversation with a man today whom I know well.  This particular man desperately wants to find true love, but is convinced he has too many past relationship 'issues' right now to be able to fully let someone in and fill that void.  That being said, this man has had exactly what he's been hoping for literally right in front of him for months, but couldn't see past his 'issues' to recognize his good fortune.  It sh...