Ugh.
The audacity of people amazes me. Shocks the fuck outta me would be a better phrase.
Grande and I have been split up for more than 2 months, but have continued to talk and hang out. Ive listened to his endless blubbering about how much he misses me and nobody can compare to me, and how just looking at my face makes him cry. He told me how he couldn't, wouldn't want anyone else but me.
Of course, I didn't buy any of that jive for a second, but I let him say so. I also told him in turn that if/when he decided to move on, to tell me so, because I really do want to know. Ive also asked him quite pointedly on a few occasions if he did have someone in the wings...it was always met with an incredulous and emphatic "NOO!!" and usually followed up with the stuff above. Ok, Im fair, so I gave him the benefit of the doubt.
Of course, it always comes back to bite me. It does NOT pay to be benevolent.
I wonder sometimes if I have an idiot magnet. Do I attract these assholes?? Do I have a sign on me that says "Fuck with me please!"?? Is there a neon sign above me at all times flashing "Lie to me, it turns me on"???? I didnt think so. But yet thats what I get each and every time. he is determined to drain every last drop of dignity from me before I fully walk away from him, and he has been succeeding. I feel nothing but loathing and disgust for this parasite, and want really bad things to befall him. Im tired of feeling played, and he manages to do it effortlessly, then expects forgiveness. He disgusts me.
Grande and I have been split up for more than 2 months, but have continued to talk and hang out. Ive listened to his endless blubbering about how much he misses me and nobody can compare to me, and how just looking at my face makes him cry. He told me how he couldn't, wouldn't want anyone else but me.
Of course, I didn't buy any of that jive for a second, but I let him say so. I also told him in turn that if/when he decided to move on, to tell me so, because I really do want to know. Ive also asked him quite pointedly on a few occasions if he did have someone in the wings...it was always met with an incredulous and emphatic "NOO!!" and usually followed up with the stuff above. Ok, Im fair, so I gave him the benefit of the doubt.
Of course, it always comes back to bite me. It does NOT pay to be benevolent.
I wonder sometimes if I have an idiot magnet. Do I attract these assholes?? Do I have a sign on me that says "Fuck with me please!"?? Is there a neon sign above me at all times flashing "Lie to me, it turns me on"???? I didnt think so. But yet thats what I get each and every time. he is determined to drain every last drop of dignity from me before I fully walk away from him, and he has been succeeding. I feel nothing but loathing and disgust for this parasite, and want really bad things to befall him. Im tired of feeling played, and he manages to do it effortlessly, then expects forgiveness. He disgusts me.
"Fuck me once, shame on you. Fuck me twice, shame on me."
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