::Let Me Clear My Throat::

OK, so let's start a list.  -Got over my ex: ✔ -Taken time to "find myself“ after said breakup (whatever that means): ✔ -Attended a restaurant/movie/concert/wedding alone ✔ -Taken a trip solo: ✔x3 .. Oh, and lest we forget the biggest & baddest... -Learned how to love myself and be comfortable with being single: ✔✔✔✔✔✔✔✔ .. Though it should be noted that such a task would be tough to complete when one has been single as long as I have.  I checked all the boxes, did all the stuff single people are supposed to do during their single days. I've had adventures and sowed my oats (or something), I've been the kick ass single chick for way longer than I signed up for, but I'm bored!! I'm done being single, it's not fun anymore.  It's not fun attending social events and not having someone to rehash the highlights with over ice cream in your pajamas when it's over. It's not fun be...

I want to mention, before I get into the shitty of this post, that life has been somewhat kind to me these days.  I don't have a whole lot that brings me down, outside of normal life stress.  My relationship with my kids is awesome, closer everyday, I have a cool job, no more legal issues, and a great group of friends, which includes Poppa.   In case I haven't mentioned before, Poppa is my BGF (Best Guy Friend).  We're closer than close, more than friends, less than romantic, more than family.  We talk multiple times a day, have our own weird language, he's my other half and my sanctuary.  He told me recently that the reason he could never date me is because he puts me on a pedestal- he says he sizes up all potential mates to me, and loves me too much to ruin what we have with a relationship...kinda lame, but I guess I understand.  I feel the same about him, and feel blessed that I have him in the capacity that I do.  We've seen each other throu...