Faking It
Everyday I have to pretend I'm not dying inside. That's almost as hard as that dying part. I don't begrudge my friends or family's happiness, I just want a little piece of my own. My second cousin is celebrating 43(!) years of marriage, that's amazing to me. But it also serves to remind me that I'll never have that.. A lifetime with someone I love. I feel like my life has been wasted waiting for that person, wondering if they'll ever come at all.